End of Years

As you have probably figured, i don't quite blog about daily school life and such, only like sabbaticals.... but i can't help it this time...
i've been like not as on turbo speed because i'm kinda breaking down the engine i mean...and besides there was piano.. and i really really wanted to pass it...
so yep there it goes crash... split between the 2. apparently i tried practising piano ... more whenever i can and therefore lesser time to revise...and i had to sleep for a certain amt of time or i won't be able to wake up the next day.. well sometimes...
and so yep.. i practised..try to revise still.. went for exam.. with the same problem-cold fingers- seriously was cold... but it was weird to wear ur jacket in the middle of the exam right? anyway yeah.. went for piano exam... then i started trying to study more.. study study study.. but sometimes really tired... and then the friday before the first exam... couldn't eat dinner... just totally dun feel like... lucky i'm still ok and even so now... n here i am trying to finish revising for the last paper with a junk of questions in my head...
I did something insane that saturday after the unable-to-eat-dinner friday, it was around..2300.. i wanted to finish studying for the paper.. then i can juz simply flip through the notes on sunday, but i just felt like sleeping.. so i switched off the lights and went to sleep, setting my alarm clock at 2330. then i really woke up at 2330 and started studying again until around 0200. n the sleep seriously helped because i managed to rmb the facts easily.
and now.. with only 1 more paper to go i realised my heart have been beating quite fast for the past few days... i don't know if it's fast or what... *sigh*... and i'm tired again.. but i'm so worried for EVERYTHING.. i still feel that i haven't tried my best i don't know why.. though i've really given near to all for history.. maths.. is seriously.. i don't know i didn't practise recently because i have been practising piano... and i had to finish homework. english and chinese i don't know... geography was a mess... i mixed up some stuff...
i really don't know and actually i don't feel like knowing....
all i can say is...
teachers if my results come out disappointing, pls pardon me...ok? well for piano teacher too... but i really DID try my best... i was still trying to balance out both sides... and well academic is still more important right? because it doesn't seem like you can go far with juz that cert...
man... this lump...- that's a non-matter-
now my stomach... k i don't feel like eating carrots n peanut butter... gosh!
gtg
slan go foil...